Monday, December 31, 2007

Saturn Return in Cancer

As Saturn moves through Cancer and aspects the Sun of the United States' horoscope, it is helpful to understand as much as possible about this transit. Astrologers have Utopian ideals for the future and idealistic expectations for the present but I find astrology even more useful for the patterns it reveals from the past.


It is sad and a little disturbing to realize that for the past 125 years, Saturn has been transiting Cancer during great wars including World War I, World War II and Viet Nam so I think it is worth taking a serious look at what Saturn in Cancer may really have meant in history. History is made by people. Far from "building walls and hiding behind security," the people I will describe to you with Saturn in Cancer instead provide those very things to others, despite often never having had them themselves due to traumatic events occurring in the outer world at the time of the birth which also affected their home environment.


An article appeared in The Mountain Astrologer in 1978 by David Horbovetz called The Seven Most Challenging Aspects. At the top of the list was "any combination of the Moon and Saturn". This includes Saturn in the 4th house, the Moon in the 10th house, the Moon's Nodes in Cancer/Capricorn, Moon in Capricorn and Saturn in Cancer.


Saturn is a complex and critical planet in chart interpretation and in mapping human territory. Since we are discussing Saturn in a water sign, we may learn much by considering Saturn in Cancer briefly as contrasted with the other two water signs, Scorpio and Pisces.


Saturn is uncomfortable in water. The water signs are about emotions and bonding. Emotions are meant to flow. Just when you want to appear strongest, your voice cracks or your eyes fill over with tears. Cancer, Scorpio and Pisces revolt at the cold demands of Saturn and become like children who, denied the sympathy they deserve if for no other reason than that they are children, cry even harder.


Scorpio, unlike Cancer, has traveled through the experiences of Leo, falling in love, sometimes foolishly; Virgo, cleaning up after a messy affair, financially supporting a child engendered in a one night stand or choosing to be alone rather than in a relationship which is not significant; and Libra, where the whole martial arts world of relating is encountered. After the Libra experience, you can't say you don't know that other people have boundaries and definition outside yourself with a whole set of expectations that may or may not guarantee that you will have what you want in the relationship, regardless of the initial attraction.


Scorpios have social awareness, whether they chose to use it or not. And they have built up some very real and persuasive personal power. Scorpios may be stung and stung badly - in fact if I had to choose between the greater pain, Cancer or Scorpio, it would be a very close call. But Scorpios never remain victims. They will destroy something, even themselves, to end a position of victimization.


Saturn is equally miserable in the water sign of Pisces. The Piscean ocean washes over the best efforts of Saturn and leaves not a trace. Your deepest commitment? Your greatest aspirations? Washed away. Saturn in Pisces often chooses to deal with things in life that are most corrosive to hope and most offensive to our desire to believe in the concept of progress. Wherever there is enduring poverty, where people are dying for lack of resources but forbidden to use birth control or eat cows, where people perish because they are too poor or too scared or too ignorant to get medical care before their conditions become untreatable, where people are slaughtered in the name of loving gods, where families pass along degenerative diseases and continue to breed and care for each other, in places where every birth is a still birth in a certain sense, there you will find Saturn in Pisces … enduring. Saturn and Pisces together, two very old souls. They can be quite gloomy together. But do we pity them as much as they pity themselves? No. Something inside us says, "You knew it would be like this all along. Now why complain?" They partake of the nature of the aged, which is to know all and endure all.


As we know from horary astrology, Saturn is in its "house of joy" in the 12th house, a similar energy to Saturn in Pisces. [William Lilly said: "Malefic Saturn rejoices in the baleful 12th house, which supports its theme of limitation."]


This brings us full circle to the first water sign, Cancer. What does Cancer know of all of this? Of Scorpionic revenge and the Piscean Rivers of Lethe? Cancer is a little child.


The horror of Saturn in Cancer is that a child who knows nothing is expected to endure with nothing. A child can't build walls to protect itself. That's what the walls of the home are for, the shelter of the father materially and the mother emotionally. What can a child do without these walls? There is an awe-ful vulnerability to Saturn in Cancer. I have seen people with this placement repeat the same mistakes in trusting over and over again, each time opening their arms and hearts as wide as a four year old child to embrace the snake that will bite them. There is an old song, "You knew he was a snake when you took him in." What does Cancer know of snakes when their question will always be, "Why did this snake bite me when I loved it so much and took it home and cared for it so tenderly?"


The reason this is more painful than Saturn in Aries, Taurus or Gemini, other early and "naïve" signs in the wheel, is that Cancer bonds. That is its nature as the first water sign. If the snake bites me in Aries, I will be surprised and furious! I will cut off its head. If it bites me in Taurus, I will hit it over the head with a shovel and throw it away or I will pay someone else to do this for me. If it bites me in Gemini, I will be amazed and curious and talk about it and find out more about it and what other things are dangerous in this world. But if it bites me in Cancer, I will continue to love and care for it though it may bite me again because I bond with all living things and I will be very, very puzzled. Why did it bite me? Was it something I did wrong?


I know that the traditional reading of Saturn is that you are limited in the area concerned but I sometimes believe it is just the opposite. It may be that we have unlimited access to an energy that the world insists must be limited (Saturn). Perhaps our lifework in our charts is to stand against the influence of a cynical and denying world and to pour out this energy from within, from the limitless source we have inside ourselves. Many of the people whose charts I studied did just this. At some level, regardless of stern disapproval by a denying world, they refused to believe that we are not a human family.


Cancer is the sign of the mother and the child. Every time we see a wonderful picture or painting of a mother tenderly embracing her baby, implied in the background is some strong protecting presence (father? husband? brother? provider?) who permits this intimacy to thrive. There is someone who battles the bill collector, and repairs the leaky sink, and works on the heater and pays for the car to drive to the doctor so that mother and baby can be safe in the budding of their sacred circle. All single mothers know this because they do not have this luxury of turning their backs on the world to be alone with their babies. But there is something else about this picture, something that only people with Saturn in Cancer may really know -- and that is that it is the child who loves unconditionally and not the mother.


When Saturn is in Cancer, thousands of little people are allowed to walk to school by themselves without umbrellas and raincoats, without warnings about cars and dirty old men. Where are their parents? And how can those with Saturn in Cancer become their own parent when they have no experience about the wider world to guide them?


My client Amy, with Saturn in Cancer, said, "I cried myself to sleep every night until one day it hit me. No one could hear me. I mean they couldn't hear me emotionally. So I quit crying."
I watched a military training film which flashed photographs of breasts, loving mothers, soft touches, tender looks, hair stroked, shoulders patted, hands tenderly held, sweet, loving young wives -- with photographs of children being beaten, pushed to the floor, shoved to the ground, hit and humiliated, sometimes standing alone with no clothes on or huddled in a corner. The images were alternated, a long gaze at the mother's love, a quick hit of denial, back to the longing for a mother's love, another hit or rejection.


The intent of this film was to put the tender throat of a man's emotions on the razor's edge and then turn him loose with as much pain as he could bear, directly onto the enemy. The film showed sadistic events and was itself sadistic. The Marquis de Sade had Saturn in Cancer.
Statistics from studies done in World War II have revealed that only about 10% of men are willing to kill under any circumstances. The images in this film were chosen to drive those on the borderline over the edge, in other words, to make normal men willing to kill. Please notice, that it was the denial not of sex but of motherly love which was the propagandist's weapon of choice. This kind of love is embodied in one sign and one sign only, Cancer.


Natal Saturn in Cancer can be heartbreaking not only because these children are old before they are young but also, paradoxically because, like innocent little children, they persist in retaining a trust and vulnerability which takes them into shark infested waters over and over again without weapons or protection, with only their own determination to love and endure. Their armor eventually becomes their very vulnerability. They believe that we, here on earth, are bonded, that we are clan and family, that we protect and care for each other.


I analyzed the charts and lives of over 75 famous people with Saturn in Cancer from Michelangelo in 1475 CE to those who are currently making their initiation in to the adult world with their first Saturn Return at this time, such as Drew Barrymore (February 2, 1975) and Angelina Jolie (June 4, 1975). Although the group of charts I looked at included some of the world's greatest generals, geniuses, artists, writers, performers, scientists and even presidents, it was the private lives of these people, the most intimate details of their lives which revealed the meaning of this placement of Saturn.


Far from barricading themselves behind stone walls as I've been reading so many astrologers predict for Saturn's transit through Cancer, they reach out to embrace and protect those around them, even sometimes their whole country and all their country men, in many cases making their siblings or parents feel safe and protected, while never having known these feelings themselves. Let's take a look at some of these people.


Many of these people whose charts I looked at left school at 12 and 13 to support families: Raymond Burr and Jackie Gleason are examples. The list of runaway or missing fathers lead me to websites that addressed the issue of "father hunger". Robert Baden-Powell (founder of the Boy Scouts), Galileo, the Duke of Wellington, Jackie Gleason, Eminem, Angelina Jolie and Drew Barrymore had fathers "missing in action: The deaths or loss of mothers …, endless, but most profoundly: Michelangelo and Queen Elizabeth I. The loss of a child: Shakespeare, Sylvester Stallone (autism), Mia Farrow (two children: one to heart disease and one to Woody Allen). The loss of a mother and a child: Mary Shelley. The loss of both parents: Joseph Conrad.


Some people with Saturn in Cancer have lives one almost cannot bear to imagine. Edith Piaf and Eric Clapton had the unbelievable loss of both parents and a child. Edith Piaf was born underneath a street lamp and abandoned there, while Saturn was in Cancer in 1915. At one time this French singer, known as the "Little Sparrow", was the highest paid entertainer in the world. Her life was a tragic mixture of unrequited love and drugs, reflected in her soulful and emotive songs that captured audiences around the world (Milord, for example, and my favorite L'Amour, Toujours l'Amour).


Eric Clapton's life has been so painful, it is difficult to write about. Born in 1945, he was abandoned by both parents (illegitimate) and raised by grandparents. His life was plagued with drugs and alcohol. At one of the times in his life when he was on an even keel, his little two year old fell 40 stories from a hotel window. Clapton is considered by many to be one of the most talented musicians who ever lived.


Nostradamus, who lived around 1503, has the distinction of being someone whose entire family was killed by the plague (wife and children). Few lives are as filled with pathos.


The great Mexican artist Diego Rivera lost his twin brother at two and a son at two. William Wordsworth lost his parents and was separated from his sister at eight. He was eventually reunited with his sister and cared for her during her long mental and physical degeneration into death, the result of a severe illness.


Mary Shelley was born with Saturn in Cancer in 1797. Eleven days after her birth her mother, the famous feminist Mary Wollstonecraft died. Mary Shelley later gave birth to a child who died eleven days after it was born, in one of the tragic and horrifying equations of the subconscious. Her father and her lover, the poet Percy Byssche Shelley, died within a one year period. Mary Shelley wrote Frankenstein, a work of art that has captured the imagination of generations.


The love of and longing for the mother you would expect to see with this placement is eloquently described by the great British writer, D. H Lawrence who had Saturn in Cancer. This is a rather long quote but so illustrative of the feelings of Saturn in Cancer, I think you will enjoy reading it … "My mother was a clever, ironical, delicately moulded [sic] woman of good burgher descent. She married below her. My father was dark, ruddy, with a fine laugh. He was a coal-miner. He was one of the sanguine temperament, warm and hearty, but unstable. He lacked principle, as my mother would have said. He deceived her and lied to her. She despised him - he drank. Their marriage life has been one carnal, bloody fight. I was born hating my father: as early as ever I can remember, I shivered with horror when he touched me. He was bad before I was born. This has been a kind of bond between me and my mother. We have loved each other, almost with a husband and wife love, as well as filial ,and maternal (...) It has been rather terrible and has made me, in some respects, abnormal (...) I think this peculiar fusion of soul (...) never comes twice in a life-time - it doesn't seem natural." [The Geographical Background of the Early Works of D.H. Lawrence, Claude Sinzelle, pp 78, 79.]


As well as great love for the mother, great and grave disappointment in the father is a common theme with this placement. "Father hunger" is the inevitable companion of excessive mother love and both accompany the feelings of abandonment that come with this placement.
It was the poet Walt Whitman, with Saturn in Cancer, who penned the line, "The child is father to the man."


Another approach to Saturn in Cancer is personified by Michael Douglas (1944), Liza Minnelli (1946) and Drew Barrymore (1975) who were born into famous families so famous they had other crosses to bear. It touches me very deeply that Michael Douglas, born with Saturn in Cancer, has released a film this year, the year of his second Saturn Return, entitled It Runs in the Family, starring … Kirk Douglas, Michael Douglas, Cameron Douglas and Diana Douglas. The trailer says this is a story about the "loving, frustrating, reassuring, insane, and ultimately inescapable bonds of family". Liza Minnelli was enduring a humiliating divorce at the time this article was being researched. We have yet to see how Drew Barrymore will play out her family issues but she has already "divorced" her mother.


People experiencing their second Saturn Return in 2003-2005 were born in the thick of World War II. Saturn entered Cancer June 22, 1944. The Normandy invasion took place just 16 days earlier. In December came the Battle of the Bulge (Band of Brothers). It was the last German offensive. More than a million men fought in this battle including 600,000 Germans, 500,000 Americans, and 55,000 British. Hitler committed suicide April 30, 1944. Germany surrendered May 7. The bomb was dropped on Hiroshima August 6, a very sad day for the Family of Man. Japan surrendered August 14. The trials at Nuremberg took place the next year (1945). The Nuremburg testimony ended August 30, 1946 and verdicts were handed down on October 1st. Saturn left Cancer in August of that year. The Marshall Plan, a humane and pragmatic plan for rebuilding the Allies, did not go into effect until 1947.


Saturn in Cancer is about resources and the truth is that often there are limitations in material as well as emotional resources with this placement. There is a wounding of both parents at the archetypal level because the good that the mother would do when the father is missing is also denied the child because she has to play both roles.


In the mopping up of World War II that began as Saturn entered Cancer in 1944, we saw women everywhere in the western world cope with the financial, material and emotional disaster of global war for themselves and their children. In America in 1942 gas and coffee were rationed. The sale of new cars was banned. Meat, fat and cheese were rationed in 1943. Canned goods were rationed in 1943 and people were rationed to three pairs of shoes a year. In January 1945, a nationwide dim-out conserved fuel. As late as April 1945 sugar rations were cut by 25% as reserves neared empty.


Food is a frequent and familiar battleground for working out the issues of Cancer, Lebensmittel in German - the stuff you can't live without. While food is materially important, it is also one of our primary symbols for nurturing. So often the obesity associated with the sign Cancer is an exchange of the comfort of food for the cold, cruel world which seems to deny any reliable source of sustenance, either because there is no mother or the mother is incapable of nurturing.
Not by any means to oversimplify the issues connected with obesity, nevertheless, for many with Saturn in Cancer, food is the one reliable source of comfort in their lives. Fatty Arbuckle (1887), Jackie Gleason (1916) and Raymond Burr (1917) are three people with Saturn in Cancer who achieved fame in the entertainment world. Fatty Arbuckle was an extremely successful film star and one of the most highly compensated before scandal ruined his career. Fatty was being paid $1 million a film back when $1 million was a lot of money. He was accused of having very crude sex with a young girl wherein his weight was a factor in injuring her. Jackie Gleason incorporated jokes about his weight into his highly successful tv shows, The Life of Riley and The Honeymooners. [also see Obesity: A Special Cancerian Challenge.]


Personally, I think Raymond Burr deserves to be in a class by himself. This gigantic man left school early to support his family. He left a budding career to earn a purple heart in World War II. He returned to the death of two wives and a young son. He carried his burdens with great dignity, being a very private person. His weight is believed to be perhaps a hormonal condition as he reached his full height of 6'3" before he started junior high. This is one of the things that permitted him to get a full time job so young.


If there was rationing in America and that was a hardship, a deprivation, only imagine what was happening in Germany, Austria and other European countries where moral and military defeat slept with deprivation and impotence. Most families lived very close to the edge. All during this period, babies were born with Saturn in Cancer. Roy Horn of Siegfried & Roy was one of them, born to a family in Nordenham, Germany, on October 2, 1944. Roy was experiencing his second Saturn Return at the time Montecore mauled him. I have written about how this was a "family: tragedy for Roy, who raised his white tiger cubs like a mother. [See Brother Tiger, Brother Bear.]


Wherever veterans gather to talk about Pearl Harbor and storming the Beaches of Normandy, I doubt that they mention their home lives but I have listened to their children, who have endured their bad tempers, addiction to pain killers and seething resentment for the waste of their "best years" and the loss of young limbs or young hopes.


Many a child with Saturn in Cancer was conceived by a scared kid who was shipping out the next night, afraid he might never have a chance to have sex again before he died. Thousands of young men returned to women they hardly knew and children engendered in the most unconscious circumstances. My client Lilly's father drank because he returned to a life that made no sense to him at all and Lilly's mother drank because she grew to understand that she was not loved, only tolerated out of duty and honor. Lilly cared for her young brothers and sister while her parents drank themselves to death.


A child from a similar home, Michelle dreamed she and her mother were lepers, scratching through rubble with their rotting fingers for scraps of garbage and debris, hating each other because they had to compete for so little. Michelle felt it was her father's love they were competing for.


Three of the world's greatest literary geniuses were born under Saturn in Cancer, William Shakespeare, Alexandr Pushkin (Russia's greatest poet) and Leo Tolstoy. If the purpose of writing is to touch the emotions, here we find Saturn in Cancer elevated to the level of genius. It is interesting to consider very briefly the Cancerian characteristics and subject matter of each of these world renowned writers.


Shakespeare had a genius for making his characters so personal one feels that no one else could see, or think or feel like King Lear or Lady MacBeth. They rise from the stage vivid and unique. Shakespeare also had his South Moon Node in Cancer.


In describing Alexandr Pushkin's greatness, Fyodor Dostoyevsky singled out the great Russian poet's "endless sympathy for all". The writer Andrei Bitov believed that Pushkin singlehandedly developed Russian culture and created Russian civilization. "In Pushkin," he says, "we have found our freedom, not the freedom people are talking about, but an inner, secret freedom. This freedom is present in his every line, in his every gesture." The poet in Russia is far more than a poet, but a high priest. Alexandr Pushkin was born with Saturn in Cancer.


Leo Tolstoy, the father of twelve, wrote often about the family. In fact, one of the most famous opening lines in literature is the beginning of his book Anna Karenina, "Happy families are all alike; every unhappy family is unhappy in its own way." Tolstoy was born with Saturn in Cancer. [Also see What Planet Does Your Family Come From: Uranus or Neptune?]


Now in closing, let's look at two of the greatest generals in history. Napoleon and the Duke of Wellington, who both had Saturn in Cancer and who both became protectors of their country and countrymen and ultimately immortals.

Napoleon Bonaparte

Arthur Wellesley, later the Duke of Wellington, and Napoleon Bonaparte were born in the same year, 1769, on May 1 and August 15 respectively. Forty six years later they were destined to meet on the battlefield of Waterloo to fight the war of worlds. Both boys were withdrawn and troubled youths.

Arthur Wellesley, the Duke of Wellington

Napoleon saw his homeland invaded. He felt his father sold out to the enemy for which he never forgave him. At 9, Napoleon was sent away to school in a foreign country where he was mocked and ridiculed. The great impression this made on an impressionable child is reflected in this statement by Napoleon: "I was born when [Corsica] was perishing. Thirty thousand Frenchmen spewed on to our shores, drowning the throne of liberty in waves of blood... The cries of the dying, the groans of the oppressed and tears of despair surrounded my cradle from the hour of my birth." His mother, Letizia, was a hard, austere woman, toughened by war, who punished her children to teach them sacrifice and discipline. "She sometimes made me go to bed without supper, as if there were nothing to eat in the house. One had to learn to suffer and not let others see it." [Napoleon scholar Sandra Gulland on PBS Online]


Napoleon fell hopelessly in love with a very Cancerian woman, Josephine. This is how she is described by Gulland: "Contrary to popular opinion, Josephine was submissive. Very calm and gentle, she was Bonaparte's haven of peace … he would be able to come here to his wife and find a home and tranquility. She was always ready to serve him…. She was very soft and very gentle, which was important for Napoleon because she was the contrary of what he was." Their love was immortal.


In attempting to understand a personality like Napoleon, that shaped our western world, one cannot help but see the pathos in his not being able to fight for his own country or bring it to glory, as I believe Corsica was the great love of his life. His family was eventually spit upon and briefly exiled from Corsica and he, himself, never returned…. But this is material for another article at some other time in the future.


The Duke of Wellington's father died when he was young and his mother neglected him to the point of scandal. With Capricorn Rising and Mars conjunct Saturn in Cancer opposed by Pluto in Capricorn, he was a somber boy and later noted for his iron will and cold menacing stature.
In contrast, the Duke of Wellington reveals his Cancerian qualities in this oft quoted anecdote, "The Duke once met a little boy, crying by the road. "Come now, that's no way for a young gentleman to behave. What's the matter?" he asked. "I have to go away to school tomorrow," sobbed the child, "and I'm worried about my pet toad. There's no-one else to care for it and I shan't know how it is." Keen to ease the little chap's discomfort, the Duke promised to attend to the matter personally. After the boy had been at school for just over a week, he received a note: "Field Marshal the Duke of Wellington presents his compliments to Master ---- and has the pleasure to inform him that his toad is well."


Who would know better than the "Iron" Duke, the miseries of a young boy whose heart is troubled upon first leaving for school … and amidst the horrors of war?


One of my favorite sayings has always been, "In your vulnerability lies your strength" and certainly that is the deepest possible meaning of the placement, Saturn in Cancer. In the charts I've looked at and presented here, far from finding people who retreat into shells and barricade themselves from the world, we find people who give themselves to the world with a vulnerability and trust that is both raw and real. In the charts of the 75 people I researched, I found men and women who loved their country, their parents, their children and their fellow men under conditions where many of us would not think love was possible. I believe it is because these are the people who believe that we are family.


Let us remember this as Saturn moves into the sign of America's Sun and let us remember this as we honor all those who serve the human family. This is a eulogy I wrote to the young people who are currently experiencing their first Saturn Return in Cancer.


"During your life, many of you will give your tender and devoted touch to the frail elderly or to vulnerable newborns … to those most at-risk in the human family. Many of you are born empaths and healers. Under the spreading tree of your kindness many lost and struggling souls, old and young alike, will gather for rest and shade before continuing on their way. You will be like serene lakes in the moonlight to your friends, who will drink from your wisdom and be refreshed. You have the broad shoulders and soft breasts your friends will cry on when their ships crash against the rocky shores of life's adversities. Your's is the door that is always open, the heart, the lap ….. You, yourselves, who have been so often orphaned in this weary world will provide safe haven for countless others. It is because of this and for many other reasons that I'm writing this article for you. For you are the Loving Parents of this World."

Friday, December 28, 2007

Don't Let Your Second SR Start This Way

An Ivy League professor pleaded guilty to voluntary manslaughter for killing his wife last year as she wrapped Christmas presents, telling a judge that he “just lost it” during an argument. The man, Rafael Robb, 57, a tenured economics professor at the University of Pennsylvania, faces 4 ½ to 7 years in prison for bludgeoning his wife, Ellen, 49, last Dec. 22. She was reportedly planning to move out the next month and seek a divorce after a rocky 16-year marriage. Detectives theorized that the scene had been staged to look like a burglary.

Nancy's Note: The second Saturn Return takes place between 58 and 60.

Wednesday, December 26, 2007

Happy New Year

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Happy Holidays and all my best wishes for a great year ahead! THE FEATURED SPEAKER IS NAPOLEON HILL, author of "Think and Grow Rich".

Napoleon Hill has a wonderful Mars/Jupiter conjunct in Leo and the blessings of Sun/Venus in Libra, giving him charm andappeal. But he also has South Moon Node in Taurus as do many who are born into poverty.

According to WIKIPEDIA:

"The secret of Achievement was tantalizingly offered to readers of Think and Grow Rich, and was never named directly as Hill felt discovering it for themselves would provide readers with the most benefit. Hill presented the idea of a "Definite Major Purpose" as a challenge to his readers, to make them ask of themselves "in what do you truly believe?" For according to Hill, 98% of people had no firm beliefs, putting true success firmly out of reach. Hill's numerous books have sold millions of copies, proving that the secret of Achievement is still highly sought-after by modern Americans. Hill dealt with many controversial subjects through his writings including racism, slavery, oppression, failure, revolution, war and poverty. Persevering and then succeeding in spite of these obstacles using the philosophy of Achievement, Hill stated, was the responsibility of every American."

I read Napoleon Hill's book at my first Saturn Return and it shaped my life. I read it at thirty but whatever age you read it, it will make immediate sense and bring results.

Thursday, December 20, 2007

Barry's First Saturn Return

Dear Nancy,
I wish to tell you my 1st saturn return story. My 2nd Saturn return is due soon. I am hoping this time around I might find material and spiritual happiness.

During my 30th year (approx. 1980) I was pursuing my first degree in Fine Arts (a for year u/g degree). At the end of the third year I was failed in my major, photography, by a panel of 5 academics (3 against 2). It was a politically motivated outcome rather than on quality or quantity of my work, I initially suffered from guilt and anxiety but soon realised I was meant to fight this decision as I had been warned of several unfair things going on against me for several years. As it happened, I also experienced a strange positive force which puzzled me but in seeking an answer I did a considerable quantity of private research which impressed other academics and so was actually allowed to continue private research for the final year while waitng for an appeal to be heard. This appeal process actually took 7 months before the institution saw there was no way I was going to back down; and a special new panel devised and a date to be heard. During this final year I was banned from lectures because I could not officially enrol (as an appeal had not been settled).The subject of my thesis was essentially my personal evolution via a spontaneously religious experience based on psychological and philosophical findings of my art and life. I graduated at the normal time as all my peers because this thesis (30,000 words) was graded as being of particular uniqueness in an area outside the general knowledge of the art academics. It was presented to another university in 1981 where I was offered entry into a MA (Fine); but which I did not take up. I managed to complete the Fine Art Degree because I had increased my workload during the third year to cover two extra subjects which incidently were top scores in science electives. As things turned out this allowed me a lot of time during 1980 to think about my self and.what had to be done.

Now, 2007, I have been considering doing a MEnv. Man./Sustainability degree also by research. I developed poor health over the last few years and since completing my fifth u/g degree have been heavily researching my self through integral psychology and esoteric studies. I have reason to believe my life’s true purpose may be made possible with the next saturn return. I have little money, I live a very frugal life and am keen to be more successful with money as I believe money would enable me to best help others. I hope yo find my letter interesting.

Cheers Barry

Note from Nancy: Barry handled a tough first Saturn Return beautifully and may expect rewards at the second. He didn’t sent his vital info but he sounds like a Saturnian type person, stoic, frugal, determined and also perhaps, scapegoated.

Tuesday, December 18, 2007

The SR Blues from Selina, age 29

I have first discovered that I am an INFJ about five years ago when I did a personality test at my job then. The HR person mentioned to me at that point that INFJ is not a typical personality type for an accountant and questioned whether I was in the right job for me. I was quite deflated by that statement as at that point I spent 8 years of my life either studying or working in the profession. I eventually changed jobs and became a programmer instead. This I found much more enjoyable as the job requires a lot of creativity. I really enjoy the constant problem solving. It is like playing games at work.

I would not put myself down as an introvert or at least shy person. I tend to fluctuate between shutting off and being lairy at parties. I need both the social and the quiet in my life. I feel suffocated after too much time with people. My great sadness is not having met that someone special. I have dated many men and have found some of them annoying and shallow. The ones I did love my family disapproved of so strongly to the point of forcing us apart.

The single mindedness trait is certainly true about me. I have done up houses alone. I do sometimes wonder though if all the additional pressure I put on myself is to distract me from the more important matters that aren’t getting resolved. I can be cold if required. I have dumped men in order to get to do tiling at weekends. I have not found the happy medium between compassion and outright disregard. I fluctuate between the two for prolonged periods of time, sometimes I won’t cry for a year or two and then I will cry every night for weeks. At this stage I am close to tears though and I am not sure why.

Monday, November 12, 2007

Al Gore's Second Saturn Return

Quoted from:

SAN FRANCISCO, Nov 12 (Reuters) - In a career marked by second acts, Al Gore, the former vice president of the United States and co-winner of the Nobel Peace Prize, is becoming a partner at Silicon Valley's most storied venture capital firm.

Kleiner Perkins Caufield & Byers said on Monday that Gore, a campaigner for action to slow global climate change, will join the Menlo Park, California-based venture capital firm as a partner focused on alternative energy investments.

The venture firm, which since 1972 has backed seminal computer start-ups ranging from Sun Microsystems to Compaq Computer to Amazon.com to Google Inc, has emerged in recent years as a leading funder of alternative energy companies.

[Al Gore makes a change typical of the second Saturn Return, between 58-60 years old. He is 59 and also won the Nobel Prize this year, a very good "harvest" indeed.

Friday, November 9, 2007

The Nation's Saturn Return Expert


[Nancy R. Fenn, the Nation's Saturn Return Expert]
What Nancy's Saturn Return Clients Say ...

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Tuesday, October 30, 2007

Saturn Return in Virgo Happening Now

If you have Saturn in Virgo, born roughly between 1978 and 1981, and you can’t get it perfect you will procrastinate…. Not only that, here are some more Saturn in Virgo issues:

  • not prepared enough
  • not good enough
  • not ready enough
  • not capable enough

This book is a great resource: Addiction to Perfection by Marion Woodman

  • not well enough trained
  • not pretty/handson/tall/short/old/young enough
  • not enough, enough, enough …

This is the curse of perfectionism. In a few fields, like brain surgery and diamond cutting, you can fine tune this characteristic and hammer it home.

If you want to become “the Expert”, that’s another positive use of the energy.

If you’re a regular person, however, perfectionism can be toxic enough to destroy the quality or your life and your relationships as well as your mental and physical health.

During your life, you can change this by learning when enough IS enough, how to leave well enough alone and not to fix it when it’s working.

If your friends accuse you of micro-managing, if you have ulcers or facial ticks, if you’re bulimic or have chronic digestive problems, you’re a Saturn in Virgo kid who needs to learn the difference between perfection and perfected.

And your first Saturn Return is the perfect (ahem!) time to get to work on that.

A Tale of Two Second Saturn Returns

It’s been a bad year for British Lords and Businessmen. Earlier this year British Petroleum (BP)'s Edmund John Philip Browne, Baron Browne of Madingley, aka Lord Browne, approached his second Saturn Return (payback time). As it sometimes does at Saturn Return, his life began to unravel. Within months his brilliant career was over, his reputation besmirched because of a homosexual scandal, and he may have lost a $3 billion retirement package as well.
It would seem Lord Browne is having the Mother of all second Saturn Returns.

Let’s look at Browne’s chart and put these unfortunate events in the context of Saturn Return.

Beginning at the beginning, which is a very good place to start, Browne’s father was a British army officer. His mother was a Hungarian survivor of Auschwitz. Browne worked for the same company his father did, British Petroleum or BP, for 41 years, the last 11 at the head, as CEO. BP is a publicly held company with shareholders and the CEO is constrained to protect others’ investment by keeping costs down and running the company prudently. Browne did an outstanding job. He also promoted green ideas and made the noble declaration that the right of self determination was crucial to people all over the world.

For the last four years, Browne had a homosexual affair with one Jeff Chevalier from Canada, a lad he met on “Suited and Booted,” a gay website. Browne is in much of the trouble he’s in because he later lied to a judge and said he met Chevalier jogging in the park. He also accused Chevalier of substance abuse and instability. He will probably not be prosecuted for perjury but the judge gave him a scathing condemnation.

Further, officers of publically held companies are held to very high standards of ethics to protect the public interest. This doesn't affect that Browne had a personal life but rather that he lied under oath.



When the affair with Chevalier ended, the young “escort” threatened to publish the details of his affair with Browne. It was also alleged that Browne abused company assets and resources by, among other things, giving Chevalier a BP laptop, letting him use the company plane and hand delivering him cash via a BP employee. It is illegal to use resources of a publicly held company for personal pleasure or to squander the assets frivolously. Were this Browne’s own company, he could have done whatever he wanted.

In his resignation statement made in May (2007), Lord Browne commented: "In my 41 years with BP, I have kept my private life separate from my business life. I have always regarded my sexuality as a personal matter, to be kept private. I shall not be commenting on my personal issues further. I wish to pursue my personal life in private. It is a matter of deep disappointment that a newspaper group has now decided that allegations about my personal life should be made public."



Browne’s public life is ruined. He has already resigned from some other boards and positions. He may lose his pension. The rosy projects that usually await a man of his stature and reputation will be withheld. He is expected to “do a Profumo,” referring to the British minister caught in a sex scandal who devoted the rest of his life to public charities and eventually re-earned the respect of his peers.

Let’s take a look at Lord Browne’s chart. We don't have the time of birth.

Gemini, Aquarius and Uranus are energies prominent in the charts of many gay men, often affecting the Moon which represents the mother. These energies can indicate a promiscuous lifestyle, a Peter Pan attitude, and thrill seeking high risk emotional behavior. Until very recently, getting “outed” could ruin careers or result in blackmail and extortion. I don’t think we would believe such a thing possible in the 21 st century, a full 18 months after Elton John’s marriage, but Browne conducted his life like a man of the past century—living a lie -- and set himself up for the classic denouement that gay men everywhere used to have to fear. His Moon is conjunct Uranus in Gemini.

Browne’s Moon also indicates a perhaps dreadfully unstable mother, maybe even “unhinged”, as one might expect of a tragic concentration camp survivor. Evidently her experiences during the war affected her ability to nurture, making a traditional male/female relationship unpleasing to her son.

If there’s a lot of Gemini, Leo and Pisces in a chart, it’s possible to lead a double life altogether. Gemini and Pisces are dual signs while Leo in their company promotes melodrama combined with a long run of very excellent acting. Browne has three planets in Leo with his Sun in Pisces trine Uranus in Gemini.

Browne has Venus in Aries opposite Neptune in Libra trine Saturn and Pluto in Leo. This is a powerful desire nature. This man is very loving. He has an exalted love nature (Venus opposite Neptune) but you can also be sure that whatever Lord Browne wants, be it money, sex or the companionship of a particular young escort, he wants it very, very badly (Mars/Saturn/Pluto). This kind of passion can border on obsession and often leaves a person open to extortion if it takes them to a dark place. Some wonder why Chevalier isn’t being charged with extortion.

The chart also reveals Browne’s enlightened green attitude with Sun trine Uranus and his high energy and charisma with nice aspects to Pluto and the Mars/Saturn/Pluto Stellium in Leo that many of that time period have (“Boomers”).

Browne’s South Node in Scorpio can give him the power and tendency to undo himself. It sat there all these years like a time bomb.

What does this have to do with the Saturn Return? The Saturn Return timing would indicate that this undoing was for Lord Browne’s higher good. Let me explain.

Saturn makes its first Return to its natal position when we are between 28-30 years old and the second time between 58-60. Lord Browne is 59.

Lord Browne's official second Saturn Return began September 2, 2006. Saturn checks up on us at these ages to make sure we are living an authentic life. We get a chance at 30 to opt in and again at 60 if we still aren’t with the program. In some cases there are major course corrections at either time and Lord Browne is certainly having one. I write widely about this elsewhere on my website. Lord Browne is one of many "Boomers" currently experiencing their second Saturn Return. If a person has been leading an authentic life, rewards come at 58-60. What is an authentic life? If you're gay, be gay.

A meaningful contrast would be Sir Elton John. Sir Elton came out at his first Saturn Return (age 28-30). It was under difficult circumstances but he did it. His popularity suffered a little. He regrouped and the rest, as they say, is history. Sir Elton's reward at his second Saturn Return could be considered coincidental but there are no coincidences. He was able to legally bind with his life partner.

Pluto has also been transiting Lord Browne's natal Jupiter. What has been hidden becomes visible and that is always a very good thing.

Yes, you could say Edmund John Philip Browne, Baron Browne of Madingley, aka Lord Browne, has been living a lie. The Universe wants us to be whole and wholly who we are. Lord Browne’s event is tragic by conventional standards, devastating financially and materially, but spiritually it will permit him to lead the final third of is life as a whole and therefore healed person.

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Saturday, October 13, 2007

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Friday, October 12, 2007

Nancy's First Saturn Return


This is how I looked at my first Saturn Return. You'd hardly guess my whole life was falling apart.

I have Saturn in the 8th house and that's a tough one.

What house is your Saturn in? I hope you're a lot luckier than I was!
It is the difficulties I had at my own first Saturn Return that made me want to reach out to others at this difficult time.

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Thursday, October 11, 2007

Chickens Come Home to Roost at Second Saturn Return

French playboy Jean-Maurice Agnelet has been convicted of murdering an heiress soon after her casino sale windfall when they were both 29. They were both at their first Saturn Return. Her body has never been found.

The 69-year-old lawyer was only charged during his second Saturn Return in 2000 after another girlfriend withdrew the alibi she had given him. Chickens comes home to roost at the second SR.

Agnelet was sentenced to 20 years in jail.

Doris Lessing has Saturn in Virgo


Doris Lessing who won the Novel Prize for Literature today is approaching her third Saturn Return. Here's her chart.
Showing her Saturn in Virgo qualities, she completely rewrote one book, "The Fifth Child" before she felt it had integrity.
Her very unhappy life is shown by the conjunt of Mars/Venus and Saturn. That is a person effectively robbed of all human happiness and comfort.
Lessing's Saturn is at 8 degres of VIrgo. Her chart shows a near-kite pattern including a Grand Trine between Mars/Pluto and Uranus. She could have withstood anything, probablyy did, but would never abide weak people.
Lessing had two short marriages in the 1940s.

Friday, October 5, 2007

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Friday, September 28, 2007

When to Get a Reading?

I recieved an amazing astrological report from Nancy at a time when I was experiencing an identity crisis. My life was all questions, no answers. I was depressed, stifled and uninspired. After recieving Nancy's report, I felt revived. Something in my spirit was reawakened. I understood how the experiences I've had were neccessary in shaping who I am so that I have the tools to be that which I aspire towards. The report gave me new insight into my self and to the hidden influences affecting my current state of mind. I was able to get in line with the underlying energy and use it in my favor instead of feeling burdened by it. With this new sense of empowerment, I moved across the country, signed up for school and am following my life long dreams. I recommend Nancy's report to anyone that is in need of revitalization and answers!

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Scond Saturn Return Reading

10.09.2006

Nancy, I have been involved with astrology for over 40 years, have had 4 different teachers and know what I need to learn. Your reading yesterday was and is brilliant; Liz Greene did a chart for this year and 2 other astrologers, with little understanding of the 2nd Saturn return [emphasis mine]. It is like you know it, are not afraid of it and assisted me in embracing it.

You have an uncanny ability to see from a larger perspective so you do not get lost in the trees as you are able to sense the forest I am going through..absolutely brilliant.

It makes perfect sense , very logical the way you shared it. For the past 10 years I have been fascinated with the nodes and find no astrologers that really discuss them.

From my point of view your understanding and brilliance of astrology, particularly the nodes and Saturn return deserves to be shared in a book. Maybe it is time, you have your e-books so with a little magic and a wave of the wand, it is there.

Thursday, September 27, 2007

Poet Kay Ryan's First and Second Saturn Returns

Kay Ryan is an American poet whose life beautifully illustrates winning cooperation with the two most important astrology transits, the first and second Saturn Returns. The first Saturn Return comes (for all of us) between 28-30. This tremendously important transits asks us to find our authentic selves and give ourselves second birth so to speak, to leave our parents again, consciously this time, and their expectations, and begin to lead our own lives. If we succeed at this very arduous task, the second Saturn Return between 58-60 years old brings tremendous rewards.

Work hard at Saturn tasks and Saturn always delivers. The converse is also true; perhaps this is why many people die at around 60. I write these articles to help you get in the first group with Kay Ryan.

You are not reading this by chance.

Kay Ryan was born in 1945. At around 30, her first Saturn Return, she took time off for long bicycle ride in order to “find herself”. She was right on schedule with the task at hand. Everyone should do this between 28-30! Something about the pedaling, pedaling, pedaling reminded her of poetry. She had an epiphany, as many do at 30, and decided to devote her life to writing poetry.

Ryan took a job in the teaching field where she could work just two days a week and pay the bills. In order to live like this, she stripped her life down to the bare minimum.

For the next 30 years she wrote and wrote. Nothing much happened and she did not seem to ask for much to happen.

When she was around 60 someone gave a book of her poetry to someone that mattered in the literary world and soon Ryan’s work appeared in The New Yorker. Thus the second Saturn Return was positive payback time. Ryan had worked diligently at her authentic task and the reward was bound to come. Thirty years seems like a long time but Saturn wants us to focux on what is really important to us between 30 and 60, not what someone else wants. These are our mature, serious years when we bear the yoke and pull the plow. The harvest comes at 60.

Since Ryan’s breaks began at 60, according to poets.org, her poems and essays have appeared in The New Yorker, The Atlantic, Poetry, The Yale Review, Paris Review, The American Scholar, The Threepenny Review, and Parnassus, among other journals and anthologies. She was named to the “It List” by Entertainment Weekly and one of her poems has been permanently installed at New York’s Central Park Zoo. Ryan was elected a Chancellor of The Academy of American Poets in 2006.

Since l971, the time of her first Saturn Return, Ryan has lived in Marin County in California.

My favorite Kay Ryan poem:
Too much rain
Loosens trees.
In the hills giant oaks
Fall upon their knees.
You can touch parts
You have no right to –
Places only birds
Should fly to.


Use Kay Ryan’s life as a classic example of how to win with Saturn Returns #1 and #2.

Monday, September 24, 2007

Lord Browne is Having as Bad a Saturn Return as OJ

It’s been a bad year for British Lords and Businessmen. Earlier this year Edmund John Philip Browne, Baron Browne of Madingley, aka Lord Browne, approached his second Saturn Return (payback time). As it sometimes does at Saturn Return, his life began to unravel. Within months his brilliant career was over, his reputation besmirched because of a homosexual scandal, and he may have lost a $3 billion retirement package as well.


It would seem Lord Browne is having the Mother of all second Saturn Returns.


Let’s look at Browne’s chart and put these unfortunate events in the context of Saturn Return.


Beginning at the beginning, which is a very good place to start, Browne’s father was a British army officer. His mother was a Hungarian survivor of Auschwitz. Browne worked for the same company his father did, British Petroleum or BP, for 41 years, the last 11 at the head, as CEO. BP is a publicly held company with shareholders and the CEO is constrained to protect others’ investment by keeping costs down and running the company prudently. Browne did an outstanding job. He also promoted green ideas and made the noble declaration that the right of self determination was crucial to people all over the world.


For the last four years, Browne had a homosexual affair with one Jeff Chevalier from Canada, a lad he met on “Suited and Booted,” a gay website. Browne is in much of the trouble he’s in because he later lied to a judge and said he met Chevalier jogging in the park. He also accused Chevalier of substance abuse and instability. He will probably not be prosecuted for perjury but the judge gave him a scathing condemnation.


When the affair with Chevalier ended, the young “escort” threatened to publish the details of his affair with Browne. It was also alleged that Browne abused company assets and resources by, among other things, giving Chevalier a BP laptop, letting him use the company plane and hand delivering him cash via a BP employee. It is illegal to use resources of a publicly held company for personal pleasure or to squander the assets frivolously. Were this Browne’s own company, he could have done whatever he wanted.


In his resignation statement made in May (2007), Lord Browne commented: "In my 41 years with BP, I have kept my private life separate from my business life. I have always regarded my sexuality as a personal matter, to be kept private. It is a matter of deep disappointment that a newspaper group has now decided that


allegations about my personal life should be made public."
Browne’s public life is ruined. He has already resigned from some other boards and positions. He may lose his pension. The rosy projects that usually await a man of his stature and reputation will be withheld. He is expected to “do a Profumo,” referring to the British minister caught in a sex scandal who devoted the rest of his life to public charities and eventually re-earned the respect of his peers.


Let’s take a look at Lord Browne’s chart. Gemini, Aquarius and Uranus are energies prominent in the charts of many gay men, often affecting the Moon which represents the mother. These energies can indicate a promiscuous lifestyle, a Peter Pan attitude, and thrill seeking high risk emotional behavior. Until very recently, getting “outed” could ruin careers or result in blackmail and extortion. I don’t think we would believe such a thing possible in the 21st century, a full 18 months after Elton John’s marriage, but Browne conducted his life like a man of the past century—living a lie -- and set himself up for the classic denouement that gay men everywhere used to have to fear. His Moon is conjunct Uranus in Gemini.


Browne’s Moon also indicates a perhaps dreadfully unstable mother, maybe even “unhinged”, as one might expect of a tragic concentration camp survivor. Evidently her experiences during the war affected her ability to nurture, making a traditional male/female relationship unpleasing to her son.


If there’s a lot of Gemini, Leo and Pisces in a chart, it’s possible to lead a double life altogether. Gemini and Pisces are dual signs while Leo in their company promotes melodrama combined with a long run of very excellent acting. Browne has three planets in Leo with his Sun in Pisces trine Uranus in Gemini.


Browne has Venus in Aries opposite Neptune in Libra trine Saturn and Pluto in Leo. This is a powerful desire nature. This man is very loving. He has an exalted love nature (Venus opposite Neptune) but you can also be sure that whatever Lord Browne wants, be it money, sex or the companionship of a particular young escort, he wants it very, very badly (Mars/Saturn/Pluto). This kind of passion can border on obsession and often leaves a person open to extortion if it takes them to a dark place. Some wonder why Chevalier isn’t being charged with extortion.


The chart also reveals Browne’s enlightened green attitude with Sun trine Uranus and his high energy and charisma with nice aspects to Pluto and the Mars/Saturn/Pluto Stellium in Leo that many of that time period have (“Boomers”).


Browne’s South Node in Scorpio can give him the power and tendency to undo himself. It sat there all these years like a time bomb
The Saturn Return timing would indicate that this undoing was for Lord Browne’s higher good. Saturn makes its first Return to its natal position when we are between 28-30 and the second time between 58-60. Lord Browne is 59. His official second Saturn Return began September 2, 2006. Saturn checks up on us at these ages to make sure we are living an authentic life. We can a chance at 30 to opt in and again at 60 if we still aren’t with the program. In some case there are major course corrections at either time and Lord Browne is certainly having one. I write widely about this on my website. Lord Browne is one of many Boomers currently experiencing their Saturn Return. Pluto has also been transiting his natal Jupiter. What has been hidden becomes visible and that is always a very good thing. You could say Edmund John Philip Browne, Baron Browne of Madingley, aka Lord Browne, has been living a lie.


The Universe wants us to be whole and wholly who we are. Lord Browne’s event is tragic by conventional standards, devastating financially and materially, but spiritually it will permit him to lead the final third of is life as a whole and therefore healed person.

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If you're turning 28-30 right now your Saturn is probably in Virgo.

Jawaharlal Nehru had Saturn in Virgo

Jawaharlal Nehru, political head of India and hero of the Suez Canal crisis. Peace is not a relationship of nations. It is a condition of mind brought about by a serenity of soul. Peace is not merely the absence of war. It is also a state of mind. Lasting peace can come only to peaceful people.

Here is the quintessential wisdom of Virgo.

Facts are facts and will not disappear on account of your likes.

Earth sign practicality.

A leader or a man of action in a crisis almost always acts subconsciously and then thinks of the reasons for his action.

Citizenship consists in the service of the country.

Every little thing counts in a crisis.

Unique ability to focus on the smallest of thing during the biggest of events.

The art of a people is a true mirror to their minds.

This is a profound statement that reflects Virgo's ability to deal with the inner/outer, body/soul aspects of our nature.

What we really are matters more than what other people think of us.

This is a profound Virgo statement having to do with integrity. There is also the ability to ignore the unessential things in this world.

Victor Hugo had Saturn in Virgo

Victor Hugo, a French writer, had a profound influence on later writers such as Albert Camus, Charles Dickens and Fyodor Dostoevsky. He is perhaps best known for his masterpiece, Les Miserables, finally published in 1862), a tale of suffering, triumph and redemption and recently updated for Broadway.

Quotable Quotes: A man is not idle because he is absorbed in thought. There is a visible labor and there is an invisible labor.

Work is the law of life, and to reject it as boredom is to submit to it as torment.

Virgo excels at understanding everything about work and thinking! The refinement of the Virgo mind is legendary.

He who every morning plans the transaction of the day and follows out that plan, carries a thread that will guide him through the maze of the most busy life. But where no plan is laid, where the disposal of time is surrendered merely to the chance of incidence, chaos will soon reign.

Virgo is able to focus and concentrate, following through on the details.

The quantity of civilization is measured by the quality of imagination.

No one has a better grip on the power of the imagination, properly channeled.

There are no trifles in the human story, no trifling leaves on the tree.
from Les Miserables


This is a very representative statement. Virgo minds the details of everything and reminds us to do the same.

If suffer we must, let's suffer on the heights.
from 'Les Malheureux'


Here is the understanding of redemptive suffering. In fact, that's the theme of this masterpiece (Jean Valjean).

To be a saint is the exception; to be upright is the rule. Err, falter, sin, but be upright. To commit the least possible sin is the law for man. Sin is a gravitation.

There will always be mention of saints or sinners.

Where the telescope ends the microscope begins, and who can say which has the wider vision?
Les Miserables


This is a quintessential Virgo statement.

Do you know what friendship is... it is to be brother and sister; two souls which touch without mingling, two fingers on one hand.

Virgo is the believer in twin souls and souls at all for that matter.

Stephen King Has Saturn in Leo, Learn More ...

Stephen King 18 degrees - born September 21, 1947.

One of the best selling authors of all time and definitely the world's greatest horror story writer, Stephen King wrote The Shining at his first Saturn Return. The movie was made in 1978. King confesses in On Writing that he had problems with alcohol at the time he was writing The Shining, and he also developed a drug addiction in the 80s. In June 1999 King was struck by a van and seriously injured. King dis'd Kubrick's version of The Shining and put out his own miniseries later. His work has been described as "dramatically attenuated and thin on emotional substance, showing poor self esteem and easily threatened masculinity".

King's father deserted the family when he was three years old. He submitted his first story for publication when he was 13. His first novel, Carrie (1974), was a tale of a girl with telekinetic powers. King had thrown the first pages of the story in a garbage pail, but his wife rescued them and urged him to finish the work.

Danse Macabre, 1989, on writing: " It's not a dance of death at all, not really. There is a third lever here, as well. It is, at bottom, a dance of dreams. It's a way of awakening the child inside, who never dies but only sleeps ever more deeply. If the horror story is rehearsal for death, then its strict moralities make it also a reaffirmation of life and good will and simple imagination - just one more pipeline to the infinite."

For a real shot at the Saturn in Leo "World" ... the following comment was found on a King website after his accident: It has not escaped the collective attention of King faithful that the author's grisly weekend mishap sounds eerily familiar. As in Christine, Cujo and Misery familiar. King was struck by an out-of-control vehicle (like in Christine?) driven by a motorist who apparently had been distracted by a dog (as in Cujo?) Moreover, the impact of the crash threw King off the road--making him, temporarily at least, a stranded, hobbled writer (like Paul Sheldon in Misery?

"Misery? Cujo?/Which book is he living out?/Blame it on the dog...," a haiku-minded Netizen ponders on an Internet newsgroup (alt.talk.bizarre).

This is a biiiiiiiiiiiiiiiig problem for the Saturn in Leo crowd -- what's the line between fiction and reality? Yes, we are poor players that strut and fret our hour upon the stage, but who's the director? What's the difference between drama and melodrama? And what if we create from a destructive place?

At the end of On Writing, King talks of taking an afternoon stroll along the side of a country road, being hit by an out-of-control van, then waking up feeling like a character in one of his novels: "I’m lying in the ditch and there’s blood all over my face and my right leg hurts. I look down and see something I don’t like: my lap now appears to be on sideways, as if my whole lower body had been wrenched half a turn to the right.

I’m an alcoholic, I thought, and there was no dissenting opinion from inside my head—I was, after all, the guy who had written The Shining without even realizing…that I was writing about myself.

After all, as he writes, Writing fiction, especially a long work of fiction, can be a difficult, lonely job; it’s like crossing the Atlantic Ocean in a bathtub. There’s plenty of opportunity for self-doubt.

One day in the dentist's waiting room, I could swear I read an article about King's father being a manic depressive but I have not been able to corroborate that on the web to date.
Where is this man coming from, chart here ^^^

GREAT SATURN IN LEO QUOTES:

Each life makes its own imitation of immortality.

Fiction is the truth inside the lie.

Nobody was really surprised when it happened, not really, not on the subconscious level where savage things grow.

People think that I must be a very strange person. This is not correct. I have the heart of a small boy. It is in a glass jar on my desk.

Talent in cheaper than table salt. What separates the talented individual from the successful one is a lot of hard work.

When his life was ruined, his family killed, his farm destroyed, Job knelt down on the ground and yelled up to the heavens, "Why god? Why me?" and the thundering voice of God answered, "There's just something about you that pisses me off.

You couldn't get hold of the things you'd done and turn them right again. Such a power might be given to the gods, but it was not given to women and men, and that was probably a good thing. Had it been otherwise, people would probably die of old age still trying to rewrite their teens.

Arnold Toynbee had Saturn in Leo

Arnold Toynbee - born April 14, 1889.

Toynbee was educated at Oxford University in England. He served the British Foreign Office during World War I and World War II. At the time of his first Saturn Return, he was a delegate to the Paris Peace Conference. He was a professor of Greek language and history at the University of London and later director of studies at the Royal Institute of International Affairs for thirty years.

At his Second SR, Toynbee was publishing his great work A Study of History, which explored the rise and fall of civilizations. The main thesis of the work, according to www.encyclopedia.com , is that "the well-being of a civilization depends on its ability to respond successfully to challenges human and environmental. He got very close to making his third Saturn Return. He died at 86.

GREAT SATURN IN LEO QUOTES:

Apathy can be overcome by enthusiasm, and enthusiasm can only be aroused by two things: first, an ideal, with takes the imagination by storm, and second, a definite intelligible plan for carrying that ideal into practice.

As human beings, we are endowed with freedom of choice, and we cannot shuffle off our responsibility upon the shoulders of God or nature. We must shoulder it ourselves. It is our responsibility.

History is a vision of God's creation on the move.

Civilizations die from suicide, not by murder.

It is a paradoxical but profoundly true and important principle of life that the most likely way to reach a goal is to be aiming not at that goal itself but at some more ambitious goal beyond it.
The supreme accomplishment is to blur the line between work and play.


To be able to fill leisure intelligently is the last product of civilization.

We have been God-like in our planned breeding of our domesticated plants and animals, but we have been rabbit-like in our unplanned breeding of ourselves.

Sunday, September 23, 2007

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Saturday, September 22, 2007

The Sunhealer Recommends Nancy R. Fenn

"Nancy Fenn is an extremely gifted psychic and astrologer. She has guided me through many difficult times with her beacon of light, knowledge, and expertise. I am always in awe of her uncanny insight and psychological interpretations. Nancy possesses an eagle's eye of focus which has assisted me in targeting and obtaining my goals. Her tender gentleness and kindness melts away any fears I may have and is a calming center in my life. What I really admire about Nancy is her impeccable ability to predict and effect energy. I have elicited Nancy's help for years and will continue for years to come. She's utterly amazing and I don't know what I would do without her!"
~Margaret Loris, The Sunhealer

Friday, September 21, 2007

Solicited Endorsement for Saturn Return Expert

"Nancy R. Fenn is a brilliant and expert astrologer specializing in saturn return chart readings. I came to her for a reading during that difficult time and her reading was so in-depth/thorough, intuitive, inspiring, and reassuring. Some of her insights simply amazed me. The entire process helped me immensely. Still today, I reread her report every few months to gain perspective on my life with a few new "aha...that's what that means" every time. It's kind of like a mini-life guide. I've been to many astrologers, and she is by far the best---she has strong intuitive faculties and is kind-hearted and approachable. I highly recommend her services!"
~Amy Provenzano

Thursday, September 20, 2007

Angelina Jolie's Saturn Return

This video shows how much Angelina Jolie grew during the time of her Saturn Return. When she starred in Mr. and Mrs. SMith her whole life started to rock but maybe it was Maddox and her love for Maddox that really set the stage.

The amount of transformation Angelina went through during her Saturn Return is not atypical.

Be prepared for your first or second Saturn Return. Get a good reading from the Saturn Return expert: nancy@bemyguide.net

You know what else I really love about Angelina Jolie? She CARRIES HER OWN KIDS. Yes, imagine. In this day and age, she doesn't shove them in a big stroller and push it with one hand while holding her cell phone in the other.

With her Saturn in Cancer, Jolie will make an outstanding mother and show the way to many others.

Saturn Return Success Story

Questions about Saturn Return seem to assume the worst -- that the Saturn Return will be grueling and disruptive -- but that is hardly the case. On the contrary, the first Saturn Return brings appropriate adjustments which in many cases can seem like a dream come true. Many people really find their stride and field during the first Saturn Return. You can't help but notice this if you read biographies of famous people or look at the lives of your parents and friends.


The difference Saturn makes here is that, unlike the outer planets, what Saturn gives you have earned and can keep.


Right from the horse's mouth, here is feedback from a young woman with Saturn in Leo in the fifth house who just completed her first Saturn Return. She had a reading from me about a year ago in anticipation of this.


These are her own words. At her request, I deleted some specifics to protect her anonymity. We both thought her story would be inspiring and insttructive.


"Dear Nancy,


"How are you? Hope that you are doing well. I don't know if you remember me, but you did a natal reading for me around this time last year. [Of course I remembered her!!]

Well, I had my official first Saturn Return last year in the month of August, and I can't tell you how much my life has changed since September 2006. My natal Saturn (I'm sure you can see if you still have my chart in your files.) is at 16 degrees Leo in the Fifth House, and Capricorn rules my Eleventh House. So for the past 29 years, I've been royally screwed when it came to having fun, romance, and friends.

"Since September 2006, I finally got a new position as a full-time associate at a fabulous tax law firm in the XXX Financial district. The pay is great. The people are even better. My boss is a lovable old, down-to-earth dear.
"For this job, I had to re-learn how to drive, (I hadn't driven since I was 16 and was always afraid to) and now I can drive confidently on my own.


"I started an LLM tax program at the local law school, courtesy of my firm (something that I've always wanted to do, and now someone is help paying for it).


"I got access to a car (something I never could afford) thanks to [a city program].


"I started taking my first ballroom dancing lessons (something I've always dreamed of doing).


"Over the past 7-8 months, I've amassed a lovely circle of friends, (which I've never had in my entire life) enough to invite about 20 of them over for my first New Year's dinner party. I threw another dinner party this past weekend, and had a nice time.


"And if that's not enough, I'm taking steps to start FLYING lessons (yes, little planes that could) under the great planetary alignments this month. I can't believe that 7 months ago, I was terrified of driving!!!!


"Is this all Saturn's return rewards at work? Anyway, I just wanted you to know my Saturn Return story, which of course, is still continuing. Do these good things keep coming after 30?


"God bless, SD"



It also depends on your relationship to change. SD is an Aries with Aries South Moon Node and she loves these new starts!




Just count the rewards that Saturn brought! Dream job, conquering fears about driving, great new friends, hobbies and a renewed sense of self confidence!
To answer SD's question, yes this is Saturn Return bringing this whole new way of life. In this case, it is things she's always wanted.


The three outer planets, Uranus, Neptune and Pluto, bring changes that can be drastic and unpredictable. Uranus makes adjustments to a greater reality, not always to our liking. Neptune never keeps its promises. Pluto ends some stage of our evolution and begins another, usually in a way that doesn't make sense until later.

Much later it might seem like the best thing that could ever have happened.


Saturn on the other hand, if it brings rewards, brings them on the basis that you have earned them and we know what we earn we can keep! That's one of the laws of the universe.


Let me hear from you about your Saturn Return Success Story so I can publish it to inspire others. Send your comments to: nancy@bemyguide.net .

Let's Learn about Saturn Return

Saturn Return is like asking you to clean out your garage, or your closet. As intense as it can be, it removes all the built-up clutter in your life to reveal a more authentic path and a more authentic you. Sometimes people leave your life, sometimes through death, sometimes through choice.


If you do a thorough job during your first Saturn Return, between the ages of 28 and 30, the rest of your life will be better and your second Saturn Return will be easier. If you fail to rise to the task at 28-30, your second Saturn Return, ages 58-60, when you are more deeply entrenched in an inauthentic life, may be difficult indeed. This is one of the reasons many people die betwen 58 and 60. They may not have met the challenges of the first Saturn Return and at the time of the second, the stress is overwhelming. One of the reasons I'm writing these articles is that, unforuntately, both of my parents died during their second Saturn Returns.

For Those with Saturn in Cancer

Sheltering Heart


I love the sheltering heart

the sky-wide soul

that makes sure the child in line isn't overlooked,

that sees the turn signal and let's you in,

or notices someone staring into a handful of change and says

"Can I help? It's no trouble."


The heart that grabs your hand,

looks you straight in the eye and says,

"Look at me. I can see you are hurting.

We have to talk.

"Then holds all your convoluted ramblings,

your emotional injuries,like they're tangled necklaces

of rubies and pearls,

sorts them patiently,

and smilingly places them all around your necklike you're the princesswith a silly, wet kiss.


The heart that, in a crowded foyer,

isn't rushing for the door,

but scanning the crowd for tiny people,

pregnant women, the wispy elder with a cane,

and not afraid to say loudly,"

Easy does it, watch out for your neighbor."


The heart that like a big umbrella,

sits through endless, boring community meetings,

to be able to say,

"Is the playground still budgeted in?

Can we plant some trees near those benches?

Put a light and a phone booth near that bus stop?

A recycle bin near the picnic tables?

"Looking out for everyone.


A sensitive heart

that asks one last time,

"Are you sure you fed the dog?

Do you need anything from the store?

Would you like the last brownie?"


I love the sheltering heart,

whose peace increases with giving

which feels everyone's unspoken needs

fine-tuning the instrument of true living.
Ah, do I love the sheltering heart.


Sayyeda Claire Costello Barry

How Saturn Return Looks in Real Lives of Famous People

The Saturn Return occurs between the ages of 28 and 30. It marks the official end of childhood and "past lives" - the two are similar psychically and even psychologically. Perhaps you could say that when we come into this lifetime, we re-create the conditions of our past lives, be they "good" or "bad" which carry us through to the age of 30. After that, we're on our own! Officially into the new lifetime, through a "difficult birth" at the Saturn Return, now we create from our own life force. The Universe asks us to discover (actually "remember" would be a better word) what it was we came here to do and get on with it.

If you're in the habit of listening to people older than you, you may have noticed what dramatic changes people make in their lives at around 30. I can't think of anything more valuable for young people in their 30s and 40s than to read biographies of famous people as well. Here you will learn that no life is without difficulty and that many overcome hardship to succeed. Biographies are some of the most inspiring things you can read.

On a personal note, at times when I have most needed inspiration, I found greater inspiration in reading biographies than even in meditation ... it is as though the biographies are the answer to my prayer as I choose the ones that seem to be so pertinent to the issue I am struggling with.

Here are some examples of significant things people did at their Saturn Returns -- taken from the lives of many different people in different times and places so you can see how universal this principle is:

  • A 29 YEAR OLD WOMAN who had married an abusive man when she was just 17 finally found the courage to leave him. She took her three kids to another state to live with a nice older man.
  • ANOTHER MAN ended his career as a successful rock concert promoter (in the 70s), married, had a kid and began to sell real estate for a living - unfortunately he hadn't saved any of the money he made during the wild days!
  • ECKART TOLLE, author of "The Power of Now" had a conversion experience at 30 and began his life as a spiritual teacher.
  • VETERINARIAN has painful childhood including undiagnosed spina bifida and undiagnosed ruptured appendix. Both conditions are corrected and at thirty, he enters a period of twenty years without health problems and says he never felt good before he was thirty.
  • GWYNETH PALTROW'S father died just as she was starting work on the film about Sylvia Plath's life and suicide. After, she decided to take at least a year off, saying, 'I worked so much in my 20s, and I really burned the candle at both ends and I wasn't too picky about what I did,'she said. 'I think the combination of losing my father, turning 30, taking a year off has completely shifted everything.'" She has recently announced that she is going to be a mother.
  • Just turning 30, WINSTON CHURCHILL followed his father's footsteps, crossing the floor of Parliament to the liberals (over Tariff Reform), an event which would have lasting repercussions in his life.
  • FLORENCE NIGHTINGALE did the unheard of at 30. She left for the Crimean War, beginning one of the most influential lives of the early 20th century.
  • At his Saturn Return, NAPOLEON wrote, regarding his relationship with Josephine, "The veil is torn…. It is sad when one and the same heart is torn by such conflicting feelings for one person…. I need to be alone. I am tired of grandeur; all my feelings have dried up. I no longer care about my glory. At twenty-nine I have exhausted everything."

[footnote about love, 16 years later ...]: Josephine caught a cold in mid-May 1814, and despite a doctor's care she grew steadily worse. She died on May 29, in the arms of her son Eugene. Napoleon learned of her death via a French journal while in exile on Elba, and stayed locked in his room for two days, refusing to see anyone. Throughout her life Josephine had surrounded herself with the sight and scent of violets. Two days after his return from exile on Elba Napoleon visited Malmaison and collected violets from Josephine's garden. He would wear them in a locket until his death, a reminder of their tumultuous love. [website by Philip Bloom]

  • At 28 NICOLE KIDMAN began to make it into the big time on her own in films, moving out of the shadow of her husband, Tom Cruise. Perhaps this was the beginning of the end of the marriage a few years later.
  • STANLEY KUBRICK, turning 30, made his first major studio film, the powerful antiwar movie "Paths of Glory" starring Kirk Douglas.
  • At 30 MARILYN MONROE filmed "Bus Stop", met Lee Strasberg and Arthur Miller; and married Miller within the year.
  • JOHN FORBES NASH, JR. ("A Beautiful Mind") married, had a child and experienced the onset of his mental illness at about 30.
  • At 31, PRINCESS DIANA got her formal separation from Charles. The damaging book "Diana: Her True Story" by Andrew Morton came out the year before, revealing that the princess suffered bouts of depression and bulimia, even attempting suicide.
  • ORENTHAL J. SIMPSON ended his career with the Buffalo Bills (1969-77), going briefly to the San Francisco 49ers for two years after that. At his second Saturn Return he was arrested on a felony charge.
  • BEETHOVEN was aware of his impending deafness when he released his first symphony in 1800, at the age of 30. (His deafness was the onset of syphilis, so it had impact on many layers.)
  • ARNOLD SCHWARZENEGGER met his wife Maria Shriver at a tennis tournament when he was 30; they married two years later. 30 years later, preparing for his second Saturn Return, Schwarzenegger is elected governor and apologizes for his womanizing through the years.

* At 30, LEO TOLSTOY ends a life of gambling, fornicating and murder (his own words) to start a peasants' school on his estate. This is the man whose book The Kingdom of God Is Within You influenced Gandhi to begin his passive resistance movement. Tolstoy also tries at this time to give his serfs their freedom and to give away his land to them but they are suspicious and refuse. 30 years later at his second Saturn Return, Tolstoy tries to will his estate and property to his serfs but his wife and children revolt.

  • Between the ages of 27-32 OSAMA BIN LADEN began spending more time in Afghanistan than Saudi Arabia. He would spend a total of eight months a year or more in Afghanistan. [Afghanistan is where he found the personal and material resources for Al Quaeda]
  • World War I ended and ADOLF HITLER turned 30. Having no where else to go, he returned to Munich and joined the National Socialist German Workers' Party (NSDAP). Two years later he was elected party chairman or "Fuehrer".
  • The UNITED NATIONS has been going through its second Saturn Return this past year and next .. what a beating! Will it reassert itself and grow or ...morph into something else?
  • ROY HORN (Siegfried & Roy) was mauled right in the middle of his second Saturn Return
  • FREDERICK ENGELS was 28 and Carl Marx 30 when they published The Communist Manifesto
  • At 30 ROBERT MC NAMARA came down with polio and a week later so did his wife, who almost didn't recover -- his case was slight

  • ANGELINA JOLIE had the Mother of all Saturn Returns. Need I say more? OK. She went from quasi porn store to humanitarian, Mother of the Year and Consort to a Demigod.